should i say never better?
i feel like crying.
not because i am sad.
i am happy.
extremely happy.
argh.
i dont know.
just feel like typring.
i love to express my feelings through words.
i usually write to myself.
i know it kinda weird.
but i have no one tell.
so i decide to communicate with myself,
to make myself know who i really am.
nowadays.
i feel so tired.
and i was like "omg. i am so retarded."
i feel stupid every time i care about their feelings.
i care so much about them.
they dont really realize some of their actions really hurts me,
but i guess its okay, as i forget everything in just a minute.
i am bad in remember things.
so i feel bad in only a moment.
no, i mean its okay for me.
it wont hurt so bad.
i feel the pain,
thn i forget it.
but sometimes, its not about the pain,
its about our friendship,
some of them always, love to complain...
about me the cool girl here...
never consider about the other...
i mean DAFUQ?
i know i wasnt perfect.
but i am not considered?
it just cant be.
i think about their feelings everyday, every moment.
i think about them before i said something that might hurts them,
i know i talk rude...
but its just the simple me.
i treat them as my family so i thought manners are useless between our friendship.
i just dont know what to do anymore.
maybe i should just stay away from the crowd.
or its unnecessary for me to stay away,
because soon or later they will find out that i am useless to the group and kick me out.
its fine that anyone talk about me behind my back.
its okay that anyone plan to disqualified me from our friendship.
# nomatterhowualltreatme,iloveyoubecausewearefriends.
thanks for everything.
i am trying to think positive these days.
i am in good mood now.
thanks.
really.
everything.