不可能的期望

谢谢你。
其实我是一个很乐观的人，
所以我会没事的。

可是我真的就没有像现在酱了，
看东西清楚了，
可能性，
也消失了。

我不会再抱有希望了，
可能我们会是很好的朋友，
但绝对不会再进步了。
可能这段关系，
这个阶段是最好的。

谢了，
我会等的。
等待那个了解我，不会离开我的人。

最后我想说，

其实我希望那个人是你。

爱受到伤害

从不懂几时喜欢上你时，
就不断地受伤。

有时觉得自己很笨，
明知道不可能，
还是无法控制对你的情感。

为了逃避自己的感情，
我拼命的避开你，
要自己讨厌你。

你厌恶了我，
我却更爱你了。
我却更喜欢你了。

爱很沉重的字眼，
得不到回应，
更痛了。

xxx

自私够了。
得不到回应的爱，
也应该藏起。

xxx

最近很多烦恼，
我发现自己有很大的问题，
却不知道是什么。

我预言，
我的友情不会到明年，
结果现在就出现问题了。

我不懂做么每个人都不爽我。
我不懂做么yshan会突然对我酱冷淡，
我大概一辈子也不会明白吧？

很多事情我知道，
也只能假装不知道。

你们在我面前传的字条，
你们在我背后讲的秘密，
我觉得每个人都应该有私隐，
我从来不会要求你们给我知道你们的秘密，
可是为什么你可以跟yw讲，
就是我不可以？

我知道一定有事让你对我突然冷淡，
可是为什么你们女生就是喜欢自己收住收住，
然后无视人家？

如果有什么事，
just跟我讲，
我改到的就一定会改，
为什么要选择无视我？

我有时，或时常做事没经大脑，

可是我真的不会读心术，

我不懂自己几时做了让你讨厌的事，

为什么你们就是要让我品尝那种被抛弃的感受？

TA是这样，

强舜玲是这样，

佩银是这样，

慧婷是这样，

以恩是这样，

你们也是这样。

为什么就是不可以跟我说我做错了什么？

14/07/12

I used to blame and yell at my mother for never tried a bbq in my life before,
then my mother will always tell me,bbq is bad for health and makes your pimples head looks worst.
and then I was like,but I am fourteen and never tired a bbq before.it is so.ridiculous.
OK, STORY END.

Now I was like,oh god I hate bbq!
Why?
The story starts when I came back from my friend's birthday party where I tired my very first bbq in my life yesterday.
When I arrived home,
I miss the mirror so much and go for a look at myself after the party,
And i scream when I saw my face.
oh my godness,i look like pig,except I have pimples and they dont.

Then I was like why do I ever go near the fire?
Am I crazy?i should've listen to my mother.
And now my face are with load of giant zit on it!!!
How I go to school tomorrow?
It was so embarrasing.
And I made my I own vow.
I will never go near fire,
And never bbq in my life anymore!!!!
Curse you bbq, the evil fire, the idiots delicious hotdogs and chicken wings and the stupid pimples!!!!!
And that how the story end,and how I hated bbq so much!!!!

xxx

But just dont get me wrong,
I enjoy the party so much actually,
And I love her room,
Its not like so giant big or luxury,but I feel so comfortable in there.
And she is so kind to everyone.even me.
I still cant believes she invited me,
We not actually close to each other,not even talk much.
And really have a lot of fun yesterday night.
Spend a lot of time bonding with each other,talk,eat.
If theres another party next time I definitly will be there,but of course if I am invited.

Erm I think theres nothing much to share,but my legs do sore after walking infinite rounds on the jogging tracks with my friend - yee woon.
eventhough I felt tired.
I feel good when we talk,laugh, have fun during the walk.

Thanks for the birthday girl,
Thanks god for giving me a life that fill with adventures.
Thank you everyone,everything,except the stinky bbq.

xxx

I finally know my own feelings.
I think I actually likes him.
But this time I am so not telling amyone,not even my diary!!!
Maybe,and sure I feel uncomfortable keeping a secret.
But I know giving his name out,will definitly cause my into troubles.
I dont like and tell anymore.

xxx

And yee woon,my friend,
I know it takes a lot to make the first step,
But if u dont try,u will never know how he thinks about u.
Maybe just maybe,he will feel the same way.

Dont let fears strikes u from playing the game.

And remember if u need me,i will always be there surpporting u.

淡定

我问我亲哥哥，
你到底是怎样做到整个淡神(淡定之神)将的？
我觉得自己最近常被人家左右我的情绪，所以请教他一下。
他的答案是，aiya你不要烦我啦!
吵吵吵，很烦啊!!!

本小姐的情绪被左右。
本小姐不淡定。
很可笑，
很真实。